BREAKEVEN.

a hangover you don't deserve

2009-08-12T23:19:00.002+10:00

oooft dead blog :L

today we found out economics assessment thing for tmr was cancelled cos gippel said more than necessary to our class. i guess i was kinda not happy cos i started, but i know others who have finished and studied felt a lot worse.

we had netball and quyen injured her foot ! ): not sure how things are going yet :/
contardo was being inconsiderate not bothering to drive quyen back to school even though she’s meant to be looking after us AND she got angry cos we were keeping her back :@ geerling ended up driving quyen though.
hope you get better ! (L)

then went to tia’s house after school. she’s got a cute husky ! <3>

i am now a poker pro =D ahah well not really if you compare me to addicts, but for a 2 day noob i think i pass :L
i have a star & 500k next to it ;D thankyou for chips & gifts bwahah
i own in scissors paper rock too (; rofl !

i had more to blog about within the past few days but forgot about them all now =(

TODAY IS A SPECIAL DAY FOR TWO BOYS;
happy birthday to calvin & tommyd
i hope you pass your P’s calvin and don’t crash into the fence as you drive out LOL
best 17th to both of you and that you can obtain what you wish (:

- nat.

so here we are
can't believe our song is fading off
thought we would dance, like this forever
now every single note is breaking down
til there's no sound

you were innocent, til i prove you guilty
even though it kills me, the truth is better then the lie
no going back, i've reached my final verdict.

#1.

2009-08-10T22:46:00.003+10:00

LOL so, i have nothing to blog but i believe the highlight of my day was when courtney clicked on :

www.lemonparty.org

hehe , quite funny. She clicked it twice in fact LOL .

www.courtneyishomo.com
www.racistpolice.com
www.mariamisthebest.com
www.hellobscgs.com
www.bscgs.blogspot.com

.. thats all i really have to say ..

-mariam.

this is number one ..

2009-08-08T23:42:00.003+10:00

lol so , courtney, nat & i are playing poker with some randoms.

*sees 2, 4, 6, 5 come up *

mariam - *folds.
- comments on that box thing. "i bet one of you guys have a 3 ! "
.. noone is really meant to reply.
*3 seconds later
natalie comments whilst still playing and having just raised. - " i dont have a 3 .. "

LOL ME AND COURTNEY CRACKED UP SO MUCH LOL . poor horizontally gifted girl :( KIDDING ILY <333

i dont know how to differentiate this blog from my other ! .. haha bet you guys thought of maths.
since its a weekend .. nothing hahs related happened except i did math.
quite an interesting blogpost ! I have nothing to blog except for that !

-mariam.

A simple friend thinks the friendship over when you have an argument. A real friend knows that it's not a friendship until after you've had a fight.

2009-08-08T19:00:00.003+10:00

There's this site that I found via facebook called SecretZen,
its meant to be a site where you post secrets anonymously, which is dumb, but some of the pictures and captions on it are quite pretty.

You're falling to pieces everytime.

2009-08-08T12:13:00.002+10:00

Goodmorning children! I was so tired last night, after freaking school AND tutor, and I slept... pretty late. Well, for me anyway, and I STILL WOKE AT 9AM THIS MORNING. I seriously thought I would've slept in till laterrr- so much to the point where, when I checked my phone for the time and it said 9:18, I actually thought for a moment that it was 9pm. Seriously! So now, I'm allowing myself to do nothing until midday, cos, if the world were a fair place, I would not be up yet! *sigh. Life's so hard.

OH! and, we were all meant to blog about something deep and meaningful, but I was too tired to be deep lastnight. So I suppose I might give it a go now. Before I do though, unless Nat's are lyrics, then she did very well. and amanda, well, she just fails, kinda.
BTW, the difference between this blog and my other one is, like mariam, this is going to be like, more HAHS related. I'm not going to ramble on about thomas hassall stuff or macfields stuff that isnt relevant to anyone anyway, although I'm pretty sure since this bloglink is on my PM, other people who read the other one will read this also.

Has anyone realised that blogging is just kinda... talking to yourself on msn, and then letting people read your chat log with yourself? well, thats the way I see it- don't judge me!

I'm not really mad at anything right now, and my emotions are... generally positive (except for the fact that dannis & genvin just called to say they were coming over- THEY ARE NOT COMING OVER), so I'm guessing the mood of this won't be too angsty...

BEFORE I START- I really, really, really want my Ps! Like, if i had them right now, I wouldnt be here. I would be, like, somewhere cooooool. Or at least, if I WANTED to be somewhere cool, I could get there.

LOL, I was watching HSM this morning, and then I realised how much I lovedddd it, and was just... laughing at myself really. It's sooo lame. But still, Zac Efron ♥!

The time around when HSM came out was pretty much, in hindsight, the beggining of the end. Around the time I started truong I think. And I say the beggining of the end because, if I hadnt gone to truong, I would not have known about HAHS, and hence, would not be here right now. And when I say end, I mean the end of my social life. So around... middle of year 8? Well, actually, that's wrong, cos I reckon the best part of my lifelife so far was around this time last year, so, year 10, until before school started...

I mean, dont get me wrong, where I am now is not bad (see, I just said I was quite satisfied with things the way they are), but, they aren't good either. Maybe I can't or shouldn't be blaming Hurlstone, since like, there's Stephen & Brian's party coming up, and the informal and the paintball thing- so I could have a life if I wanted to... but really, I just want the life I had around this time last year... and who knows, even if i hadn't changed schools, things might be exactly as they are now, but I don't know that- all I know is what's happening now, and I have nothing else to blame.

Last year was when the major changes began, I think. But to be honest, I was asking for it. Pretty much I had gotten to the stage where everything was so boring cos I was so used to it. I had spent 7 years at Thomas Hassall, and understandbly was sick of it. This was pretty much my main motive for attempting to move schools, but it wasnt the reason for actually deciding to. The application and testing thing, I didnt really take seriously. For one, I didn't think I'd really make it in anyway, and for two, it was a very... spontaneous decision so even if I did making it, I didn't even consider considering it (<-- good english). When I found out that I did actually make it to HAHS, I wasn't actually going to leave Thomas Hassall... but then, something came over me (probably the asian-ness) and I just... had to leave. I did expect more from HAHS than what I got... but that's okay...
I suppose I didn't like that this minor (or, I guess some could call it major) change in my life basically changed everything I had ever known. Maybe I'm being overdramatic, but this change changed every single aspect of my life. I and feel/felt that I was the only one who was feeling this change and I didnt/dont know how to deal with it. But, as I talk to more people, in school and out, I am beggining to realise that, I dont know, a sudden wave of change practically washed over the world. Honestly, I'd prefer if it didnt.

So now, life, compared to what it was a year ago, is completely different, I believe, for the worse. It was around now, I think, when change for the better occured- I had a life.
Since coming to Hurlstone, I don't feel like I've ever had the chance just to... relax, without feeling guilty. Actually, I have stopped to think what if its just cos I'm in year 11 now, or even, this new... learning atmosphere might be for the better... It probably will get me like, a better ATAR or whatever, but before coming here, it wouldn't really have mattered. See, it may be hard to believe, but before I came here, I stressed like, a quarter of what I do now, but it still seemed like a lot. I'm just intimidated by the comparitively high standards here. You could argue that it's a good thing that I care a lot now, but I DONT ENJOY FEELING STRESSED ALL THE TIME.

Some things never change though... I might edit this later on, and... talk to myself about what has stayed the same. Ironically, something that I wish would change.

- C

we won't be retreated.

2009-08-08T00:26:00.003+10:00

laugh when you can.
apologize when you should.
let it out when your mad.
cry when it hurts.
let go of what you can't have
and the things you can't change.
love truly and forgive quickly
take all the chances you are given.
never regret ur mistakes
and instead learn from them.
love those who love you,
forget the ones that don't.
always look on the bright side.
smile even when your sad.
love and treasure what you have,
but don't forget all the things you once had.
everything happens for a reason.
people change and time moves on.
but always remember, life still goes on.

- nat.

d

2009-08-07T21:45:00.001+10:00

take care, if you really are tonight.

chrysanthemum tea

2009-08-06T21:22:00.000+10:00

i dont know what to blog on this blog because of the other blog !
i guess this could be more hahs related .. LOL so in relation to that .. amanda my mum bought a whole bunch of frankfurts a and some rolls ! but they're the hard bread kind because it had sesame and i like sesame .. i also have garlic spread as well ! yay

i feel good without net ! not sarcastic at all . yesterday i slept at 730pm and i feel like sleeping now ! but im so dedicated to math, im going to do it now =D

Went to dinner at campsie today, my sister & mum were talking about how in pre school me & his girl cut each other's hair reallyyy badly like half of my hair was short. I apparently tried to cover it from my mum by using the long side of my hair and yeah she found it .. =( I also remember playing power rangers in pre school ! and when people were sleeping , me & the girl who cut my hair pretended to walk on people and like yeh hehehe we played with hair instead of sleeping, really even the teachers hair.

okayyyyyy .. i dont know what to blog here ! & that part would probably be repeated in the other blog..

on a happier note :

ultra C0URTNEY; FREEEEEE to talk :) says (9:01 PM)
i like to pick my nose and eat it.

i cant remember what happened today ! there was so much i wanted to blog ! oh well !

.. this is a shit post.

-harrypotter.

i can fly !!

2009-08-06T20:43:00.004+10:00

GARNER GOT Ps CONGRATS ! (:

i have my Ps also ! >=]
GREEN Ps. i can drive 100km/h !
jealouss ? eheehe

i don't know what to post cos nothing interesting yet school related happened lol.
oooh but i can comment now !! cos i did something to the comment moderation thingy .. :/

ALSO, i am doing 40 hour famine so sponsor me please ! :)
NO FOOD NO NET NO PHONE ; for 40 hours. I WILL LAST !

thompson wants to be mentioned.. um .. thankyou for helping me with maths =D LOL
AND i love maria SO GO STUDY AND DON'T FAIL =(
GOODLUCK TO ALL YR 11s WITH TRIALS TMR

and i soo can fly. amanda learnt also ! =D

okay most pointless post ever.

forever & always ♥

- nat.

Amanda's Fun Facts #1

2009-08-06T20:21:00.000+10:00

ultra amanda says:
#11 Flamingos are pink because they eat shrimp

ultra amanda says:
HEYY did you know that brocolli are flowers?

ultra amanda says:
Fish cough.

ultra amanda says:
Eleven percent of people in the world are left-handed.

ultra amanda says:
A "jiffy" is actually 1/100 of a second.

ultra amanda says:
The average person spends two years on the phone in his/her lifetime.

ultra amanda says:
Frowning burns more calories then smiling.

ultra amanda says:
Smelling apples and/or bananas can help you lose weight.

- Stay tuned!

c

2009-08-06T20:04:00.001+10:00

little rolls from coles, a frankfurt, bbq sauce and garlic spread (thank you harrypotter) make a great combination!

also, mariam : we ..or i cant contribute to the frankfurt feast tomorrow..i think my mum's forgotten that we've run out of frankfurts already :( i can bring bbq sauce though :D

okay, yeah. good blogging.

amanda-

Super Fresh.

2009-08-06T16:44:00.000+10:00

Amanda, that's 2 words from THE SONG, the most respectable words in the song I could find.

Today was quite a normal day, and I still don't want to do a nonboring post cos like, I have to do English Extension.
I will tomorrow night, after tutor, homiess.

Okay, let's seee.

Amanda texted me this morning cos she was gonna catch the train with me, but I replied too late. Julie wasnt even on the train, and its not a monday, so I was surprised, but I have other friends who like, say I'm fat, tell me to go eat a cheeseburger, and like, tell me to go die. Love them.

Okay, this is so boring.
Can't think of interesting things that happened.

Physics was a bludgeeeee, hardcore.
Thompson, Amanda & I were just talking about random stuff.

Maths was boring, as usual.
Sat with Natalie today, and then the next period, Amanda & I had a meeting with the careers advisor.

She said we were really difficult since we don't really know what we want to do whatsoever. Yeah, it was pretty fail. No, it was actually okay, she sent us off with lots of reading to do, and told us to come back when we have ideaaaaas.

Okay, not bothered with the rest of the day cos its almost 5 and i havent done anything.

Sorry for lameee postage.

/edit.

INFORMAL OR NOT?
Can't decide. I dont really have a set mind not to go, but I dont have reasons for going either.

- C

b

2009-08-05T20:49:00.000+10:00

gayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ; like hien.

he even reckons so! his little picture is pixellated so that his face is unviewable.

i see no differences in the fonts.. other than times new roman and webdings..

amanda-

Thanks, Phil.

2009-08-05T19:38:00.001+10:00

Like twins, so in sync.

2009-08-05T17:50:00.000+10:00

ME & AMANDA ARE THE WEASLEY TWINS <3

I ALSO LOVE EVERYONE ELSE IN OUR HARRY POTTER FAMILY (:

DUE TO BOREDOM I AM DOING THIS :

Ten things I wish I could say to ten different people :

10. you are soo weird ! but unique in you're own kinda way :L i love our total nonsense daily convoes & i hope you do change your views on certain things ;) LOL
9. i miss hanging out with you .. and no matter what has happened i still see you as my big brother :]
8. i know ppl think you're cold & snobby, but i know you're not like that. you care, its just you're scared you'll walk down the same path like last time. we get stronger the more we fall, it's just important you know how to stand up. i know you're strong & that you can do it (:
7. wow & to think at one point this year i disliked you yet we had one argument & everyting was over & now we're soo close.
6. YOU RUINED MY CAKE ! LOL. what a klutz ! hahah love you !
5. i still consider you as a close friend even after what you've done. i dont hope that our friendship ends due to worthless things
4. wake up. unless you want to continuously ruin your life, you should stop all this shit. what's gone is gone, we can't have it back. you still have your friends & family. don't disappoint them.
3. one of my bestest friends & the people i trust most in such a short time ! thankyou for being there for me through rough moments, listening & talking, giving me reassurance & putting up with me being a sook :L as much as i argue with you, i must admit most of the things you say are correct just that im too stubborn to agree (: <33
2. hi whale (: ahah. i love how i know i can trust you with anything & how we can be honest & open to each other without a worry. thankyou for everything !
1. no one else but you =D i can't believe we've been best friends since preschool ! i know i can share anything & everything with you, no matter how stoopid i may seem at the time. you are one of the best ppl in my life. no matter what happens we're always there for each other. LOVEYOULOTS ! S4E :)

Nine things about myself :

9. i'm downright stubborn lol
8. i can forgive but not forget
7. i love soft & cute things
6. my friends & family are irreplaceable
5. i love having fun, even if it means pulling all-nighters to do assignments / study
4. i eat A LOT
3. a klutz
2. i can be very random :]
1. i am TALL (:

Eight ways to win my heart :

8. someone fun & i can talk to about anything
7. surprises
6. i dislike cliches
5. honest
4. caring
3. understands me
2. doesn't follow others
1. a good person (:

Seven things that cross my mind a lot :

7. where am i heading
6. my past
5. family & friends
4. school
3. memories
2. food =='
1. unanswered questions ??

Six things i do before i sleep :

6. eat lol
5. msn
4. brush my teeth & wash face etc.
3. shower
2. think
1. listen to music

Five people who mean a lot ( apart from family ) :

5. brandon
4. kevin
3. mariam
2. tia
1. karen

Four things you're wearing right now :

4. trackies
3. teddybear slippers :)
2. hoodie
1. shirt

Three songs you listen to often :

3. 360 - Josh Hoge
2. Stay Young - We The Kings
1. Strong - Jordyn Taylor

Two things you want to do before you die :

2. Travel to the places i wanna go
1. feel satiisfied with self and know i have lived it to the fullest

One confession :

1. i'm a sook & is scared of really little things :(

OKAY DONE ! (=

fk i hate how i cant even reply to comments on this blog ! :@

TO CORY: YEAH WELL IM A BOY ! >=] you're just jealous cos you dont have one :)

signing out !

- nat.

Nobody told her she'd lose in the first round.

2009-08-05T16:39:00.000+10:00

YAY, thanks to Natalieee, I'm back.
IF YOU CARE.

I could deep blog but not now cos like, ENGLISH EXTENSION CALLS.
But yeah, in case you were wondering, the cbox and counter is from my old blog cos I couldnt be bothered getting another account.

Anyway, honestly, I'll probably post the most (<-- rhymes), so enjoy!

/edit.

Natalie says to do a good blog.
I dont wanna doa stupid, attempted, passionate-less "deep" one, cos I'm not really feeling especially angry at the moment, because I dont really care, but yes, lets go (even though English extension beckons).

Seems as if a lot of you have already stumbled across this last night.

- × natalie ; strawberry & cream ♥ says:
we must aim
- × natalie ; strawberry & cream ♥ says:
at least one person posts
- × natalie ; strawberry & cream ♥ says:
per day

There you go!
ahahaa, so yeahhh, I take back what I said about me being the moster poster.

School was pretty uneventful.
Especially since I left at 12!
Couldnt do my work cos the computer was lameeeeeee, but it was better than sport!

AND, Harry Potter names, courtesy of mariam;
× Mariam: Harry Potter
× Courtney: Ron
× Natalie: Fred
× Amanda: George
× John: Voldemort (or, Voldey for short)
× Steven: Dumbledore

- C

don't look back when you say goodbye.

2009-08-04T22:19:00.000+10:00

And to think that we were your closest friends. do you even know what friends are?

We’ve basically been pieces in your game for you to move and mess around with whenever you please. Who do you think you are? You were the one complaining to us about how people are soo two-faced and fake nice and shit to others. How people care too much about what people think of you at school. That is exactly what you're doing.

You’re never content with what you have. You never know what enough is or please with everything you're already given. You always want more. You’re so greedy and selfish. You make people break up relationships and friendships with others, complaining about how they're dogging you, just so you can get what you want. Have them with you and you only. Look at you now.

You need to stop. Enough of your games. Enough of your lies. To US.

We loved you. The old you, not the one we see now. When people bitched about you, said shit about you we’d always disagree and back up for you, without a doubt. Now I just feel silly and stupid. To have been a fool all those times. Everyone in school knew you better than me. I was disappointed in both you and me.

You treat people like objects. “nah, games over. I’m bored of it now” wtf. Well guess what, we’re bored and sick of you. This fake you. We’ve told you to the face many times for you to rethink and self evaluate. You have no idea how hurt / betrayed / used we all feel. Well I for one has had enough.

I accept everyone changes from time to time. I have. But if a change makes you forget who your real friends are. The ones who’s loved you from the start no matter what has happened, and you think it’s worth it, I guess there’s nothing left to say.

I wasn’t here to bitch or talk crap about people. It’s just after today, I learnt it’s those beside you who can / will hurt you the most and to not trust so easily. People may call you their friend, but really some may not be.

It feels like a long a blog and I’m not going to reread and correct errors so sorry if there are any. For those who have read it, thankyou. I’m hoping this is a moments thing and it’ll be over.

I don’t usually post so don’t expect much lol.

ON A HAPPIER NOTE ;
i epic failed when trying to make green eggs & ham :( yes i know it was random but worth a try :L we followed what the dr. seuss book told us to do ! but ended up eating steak for dinner instead loool. thankyou karen for today ! i love youu <3

much love to everyone ! (=

- nat.

a

2009-08-04T21:39:00.001+10:00

greeeeeeeeeeeeen ; like grass.

amanda-